it will all be ok little girl

ready go. ready go. motivate motivate motivate! come on heidi, the house needs cleaned. you need to finish washing all the bedding at least. yeah what a brilliant idea that was to do. grr. do "normal" people feel this fatigued? ever? i just want to sleep. all day, all night. nope cant do that. 3 little girls depend on you. did i cook dinner yet? fuck. what time is it? i know they just ate some strawberries....yeah nice try heidi that doesnt count as dinner. fuck. ok you can do this. its just dinner and laundry, right? why does it have to be this hard? when is my husband coming back? what day is it? ok he will be here tomorrow. wait, he will be here TOMORROW! fuck i have to clean this house up. i swear i just did this like yesterday. or was it the day before? or longer? damn it. wow i suck at life. when do people get to start enjoying this shit? or do normal people enjoy it already....fuck. oh well. frozen pizzas i guess. it is friday. right? no big deal....im a fucking failure who am i kidding? they all see it. i know it. fuck.