Here it goes.....

Hmm.....What to do with myself today. I know my house is messy as are my kids, but they're having so much fun outside playing. I am currently sitting in my garage (aka my husbands' man cave) thinking. A dangerous situation at times. Inside my head can be horrific thoughts. There are also some amazing ideas though. I debate within my heart and soul currently whether or not I want this blog to be raw and open. Are my wounds still to fresh for that? Can I live to tell the tails of my past? Or will I just open the wounds to a crowd that will watch me suffocate and die? There is no right answer here. No matter what I choose to do, some will judge, some will find hope in my journey, and others will gather for my demise. Are the ones that will find hope strong enough to help me once I have fallen? I believe they are, but I have been wrong before. Oh well, here it goes. The start of a truly open and honest, raw and messy blog. Judge if you must, but remember, you too could be me. You all could. Will you be strong enough to help those around without being crippled by the fear of the rest? I honestly hope so.